Prayer to Capri Sun

Staring into the shiny blue

The shiny blue enraptures me

Let it save me

Distract me

From the self-mutilation I impose upon myself

From the nightmares dancing above my head

With themes of hate

I wake up in a sweat

And tell myself it’s ok

Even if I’m not going to change it

Everywhere I go I criticize

I hate you because of your perfect smile, your perfect face

The perfect way you walk with grace

Why can’t I feel beautiful just by my natural way?

I need to be loved

Shiny blue, please help me

I’m lost in this never-ending cycle

Only my face is reflected off of your plastic-y surface

It makes me feel more alone

I don’t want to be alone