Praying for a Boy

I prayed this morning,

Right before the start. 
 

I prayed I wouldn’t think of you,

I prayed things wouldn’t be so hard. 


Today was easier than the rest,

I took that silent comfort in.

I know still they aren’t at the best,

But at least those emotions I can pin.
 

I prayed at the back,

A pear in my hands. 
 

I prayed somehow I would get through,

I prayed things would somehow be grand. 



Today you hardly crossed my mind,

I painted rosy cheeks, lips thin.

Thought you were something I could find,

But that sea, I’m not willing to dive in.
 

I prayed this morning,

Right before the end.
 

I prayed to God you’d be okay,

I prayed to God you’d be great.