Probably Not

I loved that he was remote.

I loved that I couldn’t have him.

I loved that I didn’t want him.

I loved that he was closed so tight.

I loved that he made me feel insecure.

I loved that he made me feel less.

I loved that I added complexity to his life.

I loved that I amused him.

I loved that he worked so hard to keep me when I threatened to end it.

I loved that he controlled me, and he knew it.

I loved that he was committed to being faithful, but he was unfaithful with me.

I loved that I changed him, for better and for worse.

I loved that he turned me into someone I never would have been.

I loved that I was dangerous, and he underestimated how much.

I loved what I gave, and I loved what he took.

I loved everything I did to him and everything he did to me.

I loved that I hurt him, and I love that he deserved it.

I loved him.

Maybe he loved me.

Probably not.