Promises

Fri, 01/27/2017 - 10:29 -- Shelene

Promises, promises.
What do they mean?
We give in to the lies, we give in to the need.
You told me you wouldn't hurt me, you told me it was the last time.
But you have proven over and over again, every time I see you, I just want to hide.
You promise me you'll hold me.
You promise you care.
And every time you hurt me, I feel so bare.
You've stripped me of my dignity, my love, and my strength.
I'm no longer human.
I've become but a shell.
I am now living in my own hell.
You promise me you love me.
You say I'm the one.
Then tell me my dear, why would I want to run?
I want to leave, make my great escape.
But in the end we both know my fate.
I will stay by your side, because I love you so.
No matter what you do to me, I will never go.
I'll cover my bruises.
I'll keep up with the lies.
I'll act like I don't see the worry in their eyes.
I walk with fake smiles, I hold my head high.
But in my own mind, I ask myself, why?
Why do you hurt me?
Why must I hide?
Why must I sleep with my eyes open at night?
Your grin is evil, you live in sin.
In the end however, I know you'll always win.
Your eyes are reminiscent of the stars in the night sky.
And inside your soul, that's where the darkness hides.
You manipulate and cheat, you beat me senseless.
It seems you must never let your hate rest.
Why do you hate me?
I don't understand.
I do what you say, I follow your demands.
Despite what you do, the words and the hate.
I know it's already too late.
You're the love of my life, I'll love you forever.
You ask me, will I leave?
I'll always say never.
I love your soft hands, your charm and grace.
I love every part of your wonderful face.
When you say my name, you say it so sweetly.
The way you persuade those around us, you do it so neatly.
Promise you won't leave me.
Promise you'll stay.
And I promise my dear, I will never stray.
You told me we'd be together forever, you told me so yourself.
But I find myself wanting to ask for help.
I could tell them the truth.
I know that's what I should do.
But then I think about what would happen to you?
You'd be so hated, so scared and alone.
And my heart, no longer would you own.
I won't do that though, you're the only love I need.
Even if you sometimes make my heart bleed.
It's ok my sweet, I don't mind at all.
Because though you knock me down, I know you'll catch me as I fall.
You'll always be there, I know this is true.
I know the only person I can rely on is you.
When I first saw you, you really caught my eye.
I knew you were the one I needed by my side.
My friend and my lover is what you've become.
Together forever, we are now one.
Your arms when they hold me, they feel so warm.
But deep down inside, I know there must be more.
No matter what you say or do, I'll accept it.
Even if in the future I may regret it.
By your side is where I shall remain.
Through the hate, through the sorrow, through the pain.
I love you forever, I truly do.
The only person I need is you.
Promises, promises.
What do they mean?

This poem is about: 
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