Pt 2 for you

Hurt me twice, shame on me, Right? What about the 6th time? Am i complete idiot by that Definition? Am i hurting myself And knowing that i'm doing so? Maybe i like the pain, maybe i Like the sympathy it brings to me. Or maybe i let you hurt me Time and time again, because i dont give up easily, at least not on you. Here i am, 7th time around, Pretending that i am externally Happy. Happy with all the Attention i get from the other boys. But i cannot be happy, not with them. I sit here wishing youd let me In more, or at least more often than You do. Wishing youd see how Much i care. but you seemed to shut me out again and left me on seen. I never thought id be so displeased With talking to boys, but i am. Displeased bc the one person i Long to speak with has shut me Out once again and it pains me so. Please let me in, please get help. I need you in my life and i dont want To see you like this any longer. Please dont end it all, i promise Life is worth it. Please talk to me again.