PTSD

P T S D How long have I been doing this for, I got PTSD from the many years lost at war On top of that I buried my skeletons under the bathroom floor I spend most of my time, in the bathroom shooting up Something I just can't ignore, I can close this door What’s this pain from, what do I stand for I looked for a lady to take the pain away to love me through the rainy days Only to push them all away, I turn them into horse, I love to hate Only to find their love turned to hate, I was their worst mistake I took their heart in the light I made, keeping them close provided the light I need to cover my cape, looking into my face my eyes hypnotize I need you your soul I rape, Only then do I turn to my true colors, it's too late you see me for who I am And I'm burning in the flames you saved me from, I guess watching me you couldn't see the gate you passed till it was too late to run You made my days brighter than the place I been chained away , until you walked away and know all I feel is the son, burning just like the father said his son would do, since he paid for the many sins I made I need you to protect myself from my own reflection, too see a different face in the mirror I don't even recognize myself anymore This is war, 444 War 4 Love At the Core