Pulchritudinous

The word pulchritudinous has to do with someone having breathtaking beauty

The kind of beauty that makes eyes widen and mouths water

I have always wished to be possess that sort of beauty

I suspect every father wants that for their daughter

The day I met her I learned I could never compare

She taught me to value her beauty but never my own

Put me down at every opportunity to make herself feel better

She was my best friend, yet I had never felt more alone

Whenever we would go out somewhere together

I would always watch the boys gape

Wishing that they could at least stand beside her

When all I wanted to do was escape

The harsh words knocked me down further each day

But I thought I was lucky just to be her friend

To stand so close to perfection was endearing

Who knows when I would be so close again?

It took five years and four months to break out of that trance

I walked away without as much as a goodbye

I have never regretted that day

The day I took control of my own life

I no longer flinch at my reflection in the mirror

My smile is no longer fleeting

Metal teeth and all I proudly grin

Offering a wide smile with every greeting

And though my hair will not stay down

And my face can never be as clear as I’d like

There is no one else I would rather be

I’ve never felt more right

So what if I’m not a size zero?

I’d rather have curves any day

Who cares if I don’t fit your definition of smart?

I still have a 4.0 GPA

Though I am aware I am talkative

People accept me just the same

The reason I speak a lot

Is because I have a lot to say

And so I may not fit society’s definition of pulchritudinous

May not have the aesthetical qualities that people crave

But who cares? I woke up like this. I’m flawless

And after all this time, I’m brave