PUTTING ME THROUGH IT

Continue to put me through it , 

Continue to put me in danger , 

Continue to used lies to get me back , 

You continue putting me through it , 

Continue blaming me for everything, 

Continue folding on me when my life falls apart , 

Continue to ignore me when I’m telling you what I need , 

Continue calling me toxic when I told you what was going to happen , 

Even after you find out i was right about everything I told you , 

You continue you try to make me feel ashamed, 

You continue putting your hands on me , 

You continue to disrespect me , 

You continue to talk down on my name , 

You continue calling me a mental patient ,

You continue telling people I had mental illness, 

You continue to joke about my rape , 

You continue trying to compare my life to your , 

You continue to make my pain all about you , 

You continue to not be there when I needed you the most , 

You continue to bring up the past when you had no choice but to be there , 

You continue to throw in my face how you used to go with me to the hospital, 

You continue to throw and my face how you was there for the last two months of pregnancy,

You continue to throw in my face how you not here father but you stand up to raise ,

You continue to throw things in my face like I ask you to give up your life for me , 

You continue to blame me for tiny not begin the man you wanna be , 

You continue to blame me why you can’t get nowhere in life , 

You continue to blame me for why you getting the way you getting , 

You continue to blame me  because I finally had enough and decided to leave , 

You continue to forget how many chance I gave you , 

You continue to forget how many times I sat down and talk to you , 

You continue not to pay attention to the warning signs, 

You continue staying outside after I will ask you to be with me , 

You continue not supporting with death in my family , 

You continue to make my family excuse for why you not supporting me, 

You continue to make me feel  toxic for telling you when I didn’t feel loved , 

You continue to make me hate you after I begged you not to , 

You continue to raise your hand at me after I drop tears , 

You continue to try to destroy me from all the bullshit I did in the begging , 

You continue to stay after you said you forgave me , 

You continue to act like you loved me but your actions showed me different , 

You continue to not care when I told you I was scared of you , 

You continue to take everything I say as a joke , 

You continue to play with my feelings , 

You continue to lead me On , 

You continue to have me think you was gonna change ,

You continue to have be think things would be different, 

You continue to have me think things-will get better , 

You continue to have me think one day you will get it together , 

You continue to have me think you wanted a family , 

You continue to have me think you wanted real , 

You continue to used me , 

You continue to cut me , 

You just continue putting me through it , 

You JUST CONTINUE PUTTING ME THROUGH IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN 

You continue not to think damn why am I hurting this women , 

You continue to not care about the pain you cause , 

You continue to apologize and trun around and did the same thing again and again 

You continue begging for my forgiveness, just to hurt me all over again , 

You continue to ask me to put my trust in you , 

You continue to ask me to believe in you but you never even believe in you , 

You continue telling me about all the drugs you buy & food , but that’s all you can tell me about

You continue throwing in my face how you gotta take your street money and buy dollar shit for the house , 

You continue make it seems like I don’t do shit yo do everything & I need to praise you , 

You continue talking about me , but I’m the only that’s there , 

You continue trying to complete with me whole time I’m rooting for you ,