Queen I Never Had

When your mistakes hit home you finally realize your true flaws You have that moment where crying won't heal you anymore That flow of tears isn't your salvation because you know that some mistakes can't be rectified It's a shame when its to late... You know that moment you realize you love a person for who they are and how amazing they present themselves to be and the fact that no matter how hard you try you will never be good enough to ever deserve a chance with them Again... I want to say love as in the dictionary term and that alone. To have love for someone but not be in love with them. To admire their presence and be disgusted with yourself for not feeling worthy to be in it. I consider myself a King with a capital K but a Queen a true Queen makes this King feel peasant like and I should live that peasant life because that angel she could complete me but every time I am around her I get weak see... I don't deserve her nor do I deserve the title King I made many mistakes just trying to be me the only one that mattered though was ego/respect now everyday I wake and mourn the fact that I lost the best Queen I've never had.