the question is always why

The question is always why overthinking everything because you are convinced its you against the world. people tell you you're wrong with compliments and small gestures. you cant believe them. no one could ever truly care about you. you think you dont deserve friendship. the things people say jokingly, unaware of how its tearing you apart. you want to say whats on your mind, but theres a dilemma: would anyone care to listen, even if you werent so scared to speak? music has saved you everytime but it can't tonight.