A RACE FOR TIME

I DONT WANT TO BE ALONE AND THE PAIN I FEEL IS JUST SO STRONG, WHY IS IT THE ONES WE LOVE DO US SO WRONG. ITS I LOVE YOU NOW BUT THEN LATER YOUR GONE. ONCE AGAIN LEAVING ME IN THE COLD WITH NO WHERE TO ROAM ALL ALONE JUST TO SIT BACK AND WATCH YOUR NEW HAPPY HOME. WISHING I COULD JUST LEAVE GOT ME DOWN ON MY KNEES, BEGGING YOU PLEASE PLEASE DONT LEAVE. HOPING YOU DIDNT MEAN TO SAY THOSE THINGS. AND AS I SAT AND CRIED I THOUGHT OF ALL THOSE LIES GOD KNOWS I WASNT RIGHT BUT IT FELT SO RIGHT AS I LOOKED UP INTO HIS EYES. FIRE BURNING INSIDE, I JUST COULDNT HIDE THE LUST INSIDE MY HEART. WHAT HAPPEN TO ALL THOSE THINGS AND IN ONLY A BLINK IT WAS GONE. LONG DAYS AND NIGHTS ALL ALONE SITTING BY THE PHONE WAITING FOR THAT PHONE CALL. MANY DAYS PAST AS I WATCHED YOU PASS ME IN THOSE HALLS, I WAS DYING INSIDE BECAUSE I HAD DONE WRONG. WISHING I COULD GO BACK AND AS A MATTER OF FACT, IF I COULD TAKE IT ALL BACK I WOULD IN A SNAP OF MY FINGERS. THE LOVE IN MY HEART STILL LINGERS, THOUGH YOUR WITH HER YOUR STILL MY KEEPER. IF ONLY YOU DIDNT WANT TO KEEP HER. JUST A THING OF THE PAST, PEOPLE SAID IT WOULDNT LAST 1 YEAR 11 MONTHS 3 WEEKS 6 DAYS 24 HOURS WASHED AWAY. NOTHING MORE TO SAY, I BEGGED YOU TO STAY, SAD TO SAY IT JUST DOESNT WORK OUT THAT WAY. I HAD IT ALL AND THREW IT ALL AWAY, NOW THE PAIN IS HERE TO STAY. NO MORE SORRIES OR IT WAS A MISTAKE. YOU DID THIS, I DIDNT ASK FOR IT TO BE THIS WAY, WERE THE LAST WORDS HE SAID AS HE LEFT ME IN THAT STAIR CASE. THE LONLIEST DAYS AND NIGHTS WANTING YOU BY MY SIDE. KNOWING HES WITH HER EATS ME ALIVE. THE SUN RISES AND IT SETS, A CONTINUOUS COUNTDOWN GOING ON IN MY HEAD, ONLY SO MUCH MORE TIME LEFT...... TICK, TICK, TICK, TICK, IF ONLY THAT CLOCK WASNT DEAD