rat poisoning

hey anon,

I'm writing to you to tell you how i really am, 

I'm not in therapy i wasn't diagnosed, 

i just wanted to show you that i was okay even if i wasn't, 

because you're fine! you're amazing! you're successful! but why?

what did i do to keep you from being fine, amazing and successful before?

why could she be the one to guide you?

i thought i needed you and you needed me?

Romeo and Juliet? 

im sorry for still holding on,

there's something completely wrong with me to still be thinking of you for this long,

I'm doing terrible,

i feel stuck i feel so tired so worthless so confused and scared,

who even am i? who knows? nobody cares about me!! its the truth and you know it,

because if they did you wouldn't have left me,

i did nothing but treat you with kindness.. i was trying,

you were the first person i have ever felt that close with,

and i despise thou for being the one.

I'll never forget you,

mostly for the worst,

how are you so fucking different.

I'm in a deep deep hole and i feel like i cant climb myself out of it and it's all your fucking fault,

you are the one that's slowing me down,

its you and it's always been you,

I'm tired of having to deal with you in my head every single day.

you were a happy mistake that i wish i could erase,

you make me feel sick,

i haven't been able to catch a fucking break since you left me.

anyway, i hope directing goes well for you,

and i hope your girlfriend doesn't mind the fact your cum taste like fucking battery acid rat poisoning.

have a nice life lol i'll never forgive you <3

xoxo, Goby :3