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When you look into my eyes, do you see the pain?
Do you hear it in my voice that i've been standing in the rain?
I mean on the outside, I know I smile but can you tell I am far from the same?
My heart is like a flower it's very delicate it's very fragile
For 19 years I have held it in I'm tired of holding it all in
Do you know how it feels to realize your dad is "Divorcing" you and
"seperating" from your Mother
Do you know how it feels to realize he is treating his step child better then his biological daughter
I gotta thank Coach Walker he is the "Father" I never had
because for 19 years considering all I ever had was a "Dad"
For 19 years I held it in i'm tired of holding it in
My mother is as strong as they come
19 years she held it down no help from no one
My grandmother Lady
Her name says it all because she was and still is "The World's greatest Lady"
Sometimes I wonder how would I be if my uncle wasn't murdered by police
I wonder how i'll be if I didn't have to be holding a "why you exucuted my child" sign on the side of the street
For 19 years I held it in i'm tired of holding it in
My uncle "BJ" he was a soldier
I never thought he would get slained right after dropping off his daughter
Sonny Bo
That man a legend though
He was a walking problem now he is a resting legend
For 19 years I held it in i'm sick of holding it in
Do you know the pain I endured in middle school
Knowing my grandmother is sick, and may not be there when I get home from school
Can you imagine the hurt, anger, and hunger
Knowing at any given moment I can lose my grandma
Then on March 12th 2012, I got that call, welp I guess God missed my calls
For 19 years I held it in I'm sick and tired of holding it in
It gets no better in high school
considering my grandfather gets very ill so now im rushing to G.A
He in the bed, not even looking the same
Couple Months later My mama say "Granddaddy gone"
In my head, i'm like not this shit again
For 19 years I really held it in i'm sick and tired og holding it in
Now i'm in college, not really the same but nothing has really changed
I still hold things in because I refuse to vent i'll rather stand in the rain
Don't read this and pitty me I'm doing great, i'm living comfortably
I'm far from a charity case I'm no where near a nut case
But, don't judge me because i'm not as bad as you think
Yeah, I have secrets, We all do
Before you judge me take a walk in my shoes
Before you question me
Analyze what I tell you
Also, remember it's more to the story then what I tell you
For 19 years I held in
I'm finally letting it go
This me is me
This is my story
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