reality

I thought this was forever 

and you'd always be in my life 

the sun kept shining 

but your happiness slowly died

you said forever 

i guess that was a lie

I was only eleven 

and you walked out the door 

you were my favorite person 

in this lonley world 

why'd you have to go 

and leave me all by myself 

i wanted you here forver 

but now i'm all alone 

i was in pieces 

addicted to the thought 

that you might come back 

but instead i'm left distraught 

i looked at you 

but you never looked back 

you were already gone 

why'd you have to go

and leave me by myself 

i thought this was forever 

but now i'm all alone 

i wish i could hug you 

just one more time 

take away all the pain 

that chained you to the sky

i dream of your smile 

but then i open my eyes 

i still hear your voice 

now i say goodbye 

you showed me happiness 

and had me at your laugh 

you won that oscar 

i hope you have your closure 

the needle was found guilty 

murder on all acounts 

it took you away 

and i miss you every day 

say you love me 

and it was all mistake 

i guess i'm to late 

the pills already swallowed 

"hello what's your emergency"

he left me 

"can i help you"

make him alive 

"are you okay"

my heart breaks everyday

"i'm sorry"

i wish it were okay 

your address is not the same

when i pull in 

i'm greeted by stone 

why did you lie 

i keep knocking 

still no answer 

mamma tells me 

"he'll always be with you" 

i look down 

and all i see is the ground 

she lied to me 

why are you so deep down

you left me 

now i'm all alone

you told me forever 

but i can't see you untl i'm dead