Realization

I took the time off to think. Think about how life would be if I went back to the past and did things differently. Sometimes I feel like maybe life would be better if I wasn't here. Suicidal thoughts? Never! But just a leave of absence. I have thoughts about giving up so many times. I have thoughts about who is really in my corner. Yes lord says no weapon formed against me shall prosper but I feel like every weapon formed against me is inthe hand of the people close to me. So the question is who is who they say they are? Now a days the fakest people wear the realest costumes to fool the real eyes that realize real lies. So the question that should be asked is.....are you wearing a costume?