Remembrance

Red flags through my actions

Destroyed me with little distraction

The actions broke me, bone by bone

The words scarred me with each phrase

When I was broken you appeared

But you said you were always there

The fights tore at my soul

Where the disconnect left its burns upon me

When it happened I froze

Lost for words, actions, and emotions

But when the dust cleared

I felt like I was drowning

Beneath the words you said, the things you did, and the lies you told

Left me with the realization

I was too scared to ever face

The truth that was right below the surface

One I could never see

When I thought you meant so much to me

But you took part of me

As I gave you the rest

I lost myself during those days,

But I relive them each and every day

The scars on the outside

Are a fragment of the permanent ones on the inside

As I look back upon the days

That seemed like such a blur

Even though I felt each painful second, I spent with you

The feelings I tried so hard to hide

Were the only things there when you weren’t

An agony the privileged never feel

An agony the privileged never hear

An agony the privileged never see.

The darkness encompassed me

During many lonesome times

That I expected you to be there

The days I pass and I know, one thing to be true

Is that I never meant anything to you.

But I’m left with the scars and flashbacks

Of days I’ll never get back

The story of how a hero bled beneath a temptress, burned beneath a temptress, died beneath a temptress.