Resilience

I will always choose other people’s Happiness over mine I keep trying to tell myself Everything will be fine But the smiles they I share don't soothe The pain I feel inside Because the screams that I suppress And the tears that I hide Are just fleeting reminders of all The times that I have lied To be strong for my sisters and for My parents to get by I bit my lip and set my face and Walked around half-alive I had to cry from my arms in the Dark so I could survive Long sleeves, wide smiles, and bitter silence Covered up my dark crimes I've got my good days, my bad days, and My terrifying times But I keep quiet because they don't All quite understand why My spirit feels cracked, my will feels smashed, And why some nights I cry Even I don't know, but I hope things Will turn out alright So I won't quit because in my heart I know it's worth the fight