Rest

Wishing and needing are not the same thing i presume

And yet I keep wanting and keep wishing never discerning

If what i buy is key to survival

Yes I live in America but that doesn’t mean everything is free

And it doesn’t mean that getting what i want will give me liberty

I keep wishing for a pillow for a bed

A place to rest my head close my eyes from the world

And I realize that’s what I need

And I realize i already have it

Faith in God isn’t a wish isn’t a want

Faith is what I need to survive

Reading of the destruction in the book of Jeremiah isn’t a want

But it’s a need because I see the grace underneath the ruins

Standing up in worship isn’t because I want look holier than thou

It’s a need because I can’t stay sitting in the presence of my God

I want to fit in, I want to be with the popular opinion that says

What I want is to be a slave

When really what i see is that we all need freedom

And I believe i’ve found it

And I will continue to need to stand and I will continue to read

Because that is what I need to do

I will keep my eyes trained on the hills

Because that is what I need

I need that pillow

And I need the rest that only He can give