Rico's Way

Rico’s Way

See I knew from the start that you weren’t worthy of my heart,

still I held you up and never set you apart.

You were the apple of my eye, the only one in my sights

yet I was never your only so we’d buck up and fight.

You were the one who knew the most about me

so I don’t know how in your eyes you couldn’t see

how all I wanted was for you to succeed. 

I would have given anything just to try and save your life,

but what nobody saw was how much I’d hold my head and cry;

how in helping you I was losing my mind.

It was a long and lonely road to where I am now

after I realized it was time to only save myself. 

I had given my all, I mean every single piece of me

 but it was never my fault and this I finally see.

I had to leave you behind, couldn’t keep wasting my time.

See how I put my pain on this paper, feel it in very single line.

But I promise to the day I die, that one day I’ll rid myself of all of your crimes. 

It wasn’t easy and that’s all I need you to know, just picture how I kept moving.

Shuffled my feet through rain, shine, sleet and snow.

Now I sit here and pray one day I can clear your demise from my mind

escape my memories and forget that look in your eyes.

With every scar on my arm and every move that I make,

I’m constantly reminded of all my past mistakes.

But inside me somehow I still carry no hate.

You tore me down to a place I’d never been but here I stand

Still willing to try and be a friend.

I need you to know that you’re the one to blame,

because with every strike to my face I found I was stronger than your heavy chains

and it was time for me to move, it was time for me to change.

I rebuilt myself, and I know you see it today.

I stood right the fuck up and slammed the door leaving no trace.

I threw on a smile that can never been shook,

and when I’m feeling low I sit here and write a fucking book

reliving all of the times you hit me with that right hook.  

I’m stronger now than I ever was then, 

so thank you for your slavery, 

and the woman I am.