Right Now
Because I love you
I don’t say I love you
I know you can’t say it back right now.
Right now
The words are stuck inside our throats
Like stones.
But instead of weighing us down,
I’m being carried away by the knowledge that it's only for
Right now.
I don’t say that I love you
Instead I hold you tighter,
Kiss you harder,
And tell you to be careful driving home.
I won’t tell you I love you
I will kiss the back of your hand
And run alongside you because you have long legs
And I want to keep up.
Not just with your body.
I want to keep up with the face paced thoughts
That race through your magnificent mind and out your mouth.
I can’t tell you I love you
So instead
I will memorize the light blue of your eyes
Your golden, sun kissed skin
And the wonderful curls in your hair.
And when someone asks me about you
I won’t say that I love you
Right now.
Right now, I will say that you’re beautiful.
Because I love you
I don’t have to say I love you
I tell you every day
By squeezing your hand
kissing you goodnight
And telling you to sleep well.
I’ll tell you in the morning.