Risk

I don't want to love you because I don't want to miss you

You ask for a hug but all I want to do is kiss you

It looks like I have my life together but I'm a fucking mess

Pretending that I'm clean but you don't want to smell my breath

It's the scent of subconscious thoughts full of fear and hesitation

Because I don't want to go out into the world if I can't be the perfect presentation

My heart is so full of love but it comes out of my eyes in tears

Because I can't run free while being chained down with fears

I know exactly what I want but it's not that easy to define

What if what makes me happy leaves my identity behind?

It feels like the more I learn, the more I become afraid

Emotions crashing back and forth like a massive tidal wave

If only I could see you on the other side of the mist

Only then could I move forward; only then could I take a risk