I only wanted 
to pull myself
up from the defilement of dirt

to brush off 
the rotting stink of it all

wash the bone dust 
from my unresponsive shattered soul 

and remove all 
morbid twisted whispers
drapering over my
slowly beating heart 
  
only to solely be 
robbed of every 
humane benevolence
one could earn 
by there own true gifts 

enslaved, is but, 
a shallow word, 
to what is happening
to my unblessed 
flash

I am, now merely 
a depravity of 
a damned soul 

and wondering  
Is it just me (Just-us)
only?