Runaway mind

Deep thoughts/ deep perceptions/deep images I'm left with/my/body/ mind/ and soul/ is my  messege / no fantasy/  just cuts sores that I'm left with/ plenty of dreams /i woke in sweat/sharp  finger nail in my flesh / many words /plenty actions /that I regret/ I've caused pain/ broke hearts/how can I change/scared I will always be the same/some say repent/but how/why/for what/when every prayer I pray /never gets sent/many ways I tried to solve this problem/get rid of this demon that continues to hold me under /dragging me to the bottom/when will it stop /when will he rest/costently playing my mind like a game of chest/only one way out/just one plan left