Ryan

This is far too disappointing, though I mustn’t complain since you’ve done so good in the past.
Still, I cannot go through with it.
No sweetness anymore, I can hear the foolish banter and I know you mean well, as always, but today I am not your concern, or so it seems.
Unfortunate, really. I must now confront my comfort and change a little thing that meant a whole lot.
Too much spice in life is just as bad as not enough, I wish you would realize that, my darling.
But you are playful and sweet and I shall go through odd atrocities to let you pretend you did no wrong.
I won’t be the crack that jolts your whole world shattering.
My career mustn’t suffer- I have too strong of a will to let this affect me in such a way- keep repeating that old phrase, it helps me, perhaps it’ll help you.
I have to help myself and pursue despite the little hardships-that is the kind of girl I am. 
I mustn’t cry over spilled milk-
or bad coffee-
or a shattered heart.