sad or glad?

often i forget how glad i am

because of how sad i am 

im sad all the time

most of the time 

i think too much 

but about the wrong things

my thoughts are wrong 

because society tells me 

because my mom tells me 

because the world tells me 

sometimes i imagine the world without me 

but than little things happen 

than im glad again 

than all my sad thoughts disappear 

health 

the thought of the future 

the thought of my capabilities 

thats what makes me glad 

thats what makes me happy 

thats what makes me smile