Sadness

I honestly don't know why I feel this way… But there truly is something I want to say… I wish that there was something I could do… Something in order for me to be some what brand new… Though this is because I don't want to lose my friends that I know are true… I know for a fact that this will leave me with very few… With time I've come to realize that I'm okay with that, at least that's what I used to think… Because now is the time when I needed someone so bad… And it's sad that i've come to realize that there is nothing I have… I've come to see that I'm out of place… I've come to see I don't belong… I've come to see no on wants me… Does this mean what I think?… Give me one second and I'll take that fatal drink… All I want to do is be happy and that's it… Am I asking for a light that was never meant to be lit… Is it that bad for me to be okay?… This really is something I would like to say… I hope that one day this will all be right… That I will no longer have something that I need to fight… This life was not meant for me… I don't know what Im supposed to be… Maybe this is how it was meant to be, for me the world to see…