Safe Check

I just can't do it I can't tell you I'm okay Because obviously I'm not I'm a mess A train wreck carrying too much embargo Life is spiraling Most times up, but others times down The rest of my life is great Until I get down to you I get down on my hands and needs And I pray for instructions To love endlessly, yet to know when it's not worth it I don't think you're worth it Giving a second chance Accepting that everybody deserves 'the benefit of the doubt' I can't believe that anymore I can't keep believing that you didn't mean to do it And because you're going through a lot Your actions are justified What you're doing isn't right Not to me I never hurt you I never would I respected what I thought you were worth You disrespected mine Cheated me Cheated me of the basic necessities to feel safe I don't feel safe anymore I feel the need to guard myself Love me because that's the only way I can protect myself Your love just isn't enough It isn't enough to comfort me Nor reassure me that there's somebody out there that has my back Because of you, I have to watch my back Keep a tight grip and my armor on It just isn't safe anymore Isn't safe to say you love me