Safe Place

I love school

I love reading 

I say all these things 

That are never true 

I hate waking up at 5am

I hate going someplace

that gets my anxitey so high 

I hate reading sometimes

But 

I love school

and 

I love reading

School is my safe place

Its the place I go to 

get away from my parents fights

Reading distracts me from whats going on 

Distracts me from the yelling

that i have to deal with all summer

And the bruises on my moms Arms and face

from where my father 

had hit her the night before 

School gets me away from my mom 

who has such high expations of me

due to the fact that at my age (14)

she was a drop out and pregnant

School gets me away from my younger brothers

So innocent, so young . . . So ignorant

Why cant they see what I can see

That our parents marrage is falling appart

That our Father is drinking too much again 

And so I read

I read to get away from reality 

because the truth is that reality hurts 

more than any death of any OTP

I read till i dont have anything left to read

"HEY MAMMA

IM GOING TO THE SCHOOL

TO HELP DECORATE THE HALLS"

" Hey mommy can you take me to the librabary"

" MA Im going to walk to school today"

Excuse after excuse

Just to get out of that house

I cant stand it there

So I stay after school as much as possible  

Beacause 

School is my safe place 

and 

Reading Is my distration