Saying Something

it is saying something
when i feel worthless
simply because
i have never been
kissed and have
never been adored
by a boy 
because that
is all I was 
made for
right? 

it is saying something
when i am too
anxious to wear a dress
simply because 
my legs will show
and they aren't super-model
thin and are not 
pleasing to look
at because
that is why 
i exist
right? 

it is saying something
when some days
i want to die
simply because 
i have been tricked
into thinking
i will be valued
for anything other 
than my good looks
and whether i am
suitably fuckable
and that is
all it boils
down to
right?