Scared

I just want to go away and never return. Stay free from all concern, But deep inside I'm afraid I will crash and burn. Possibly take a wrong turn, And be forced to make that apprehensive return. How I yearn to feel the bliss of perfection and ultimate satisfaction, But every time I get close I face an infraction. Then I'm forced to take action. When will my ending be happy? My spirit more scrappy? When will that day derive? Until that day will I survive, Or need to be revived? It's starting to feel like everything is contrived.