Scared

What if I don't make it? What if I struggle for the rest of my life? I don't even know how to do that Do i use my strength or strife? Is that a scam? I don't even know how to pay taxes What if I'm a loser who lives with their parents at the age of 30, without a partner, and without a job? Am i going to be ok? I pray that you help me along the way. Because I'm scared and nervous with so many emotions. But mostly I'm afraid I won't make you proud and you'll be disappointed.