Scared to step out and

Scared to step out and face it all right now I know the truth but refuse to say it Why am I in this place I don't know how The pieces of the puzzle still fit Your presence makes me feel completely whole Yet I won't let you be permanent Without you my heart nurtures no soul Living and dying aren't so distant But what's the real reason behind this deceit? Lying to myself I know its not true This monster inside I wish to defeat I hate him he is keeping me from you I wish I could pretend we never met But your kiss makes it impossible to forget