Scratch, Scratch, Scratch

You hear the same old lecture, No pain, no gain They say over and over again. Too shy to speak up, "All I ever gain is more pain" Overwhelming waves Crashing into you You can’t make it stop. They can’t see, You’re drowning, not waving. You’re too far out. They say, just do this. Done. Just do that. Done. You have to do this and that. Done and done. But the screaming never stops. Endless hollering, between endless day dreams You try to shut them out. They scream louder Not enough, you’re ever enough Not good Enough. Not pretty Enough. Not smart Enough. Nails against silken skin. Scratch scratch scratch Digging for someone new Someone who is enough. Digging for answers To quiet the screaming. Digging for solace In your hell. Only to be greeted by crimson flaming sorrow. More pain, you’ve gained That you’ve given yourself. To quiet the screaming. The infinite yelling making you Recede into everlasting fantasies Wishing day in and day out they were real Sorry to say You’re stuck, little girl. No one here to save you. Scratch scratch scratch More dark marks on your arm Tallying unbearable days and sleepless nights You give in to unfading cries. Listening to poisoned words. Believing poisoned thoughts. Living in a poisoned world. That is and forever will be Your hell. Scratch scratch scratch It’s not enough to end the pain this time. Because This time is different This time is too much This time you Snap.