I stayed home.
I sat in the dark.
I let them go.
I plugged in.
I thought it out.
I said yes.
I took her blade.
I tried once.
I released it.
I tried twice.
I showed my mom.
I tried three times.
I told half-truths.
I tried four times.
I met a doctor.
I tried a fifth time.
I had enough.
I burned the cry.
I changed my mind.
And I said no.

So now I write.