Sealing My Demons

by yunkookh

July 11, 2018

My mind was once plagued by a horde of demons

They manifested in all shapes and sizes

From fears of abandonment or my hidden bruises

they kept my sanity locked away.

Controlled by emotions I lashed out violently

hurting the people who tried to help.

Therapy, fighting, sex, my demons fought it all

burning away my desire to live.

Unable to handle much more I wrote my will

but my words felt untamed and hollow.

Unsure of what to do I began to write more

until those papers were full of life.

The life I lived the life I desired filled those pages

I realized I didn't want to die.

So I filled more pages until my mind grew quiet

there they were my demons on paper.

Poetry continues to teach me about myself

about my desires and my demons.

How to express my self in words and not violence

poetry taught me to value my life.

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Comments (2)

yunkookhJul 22, 2018

<p>Thank you for your kind words and I am also glad that we as a society are slowly growing more aware of suicide. I'm glad that you were able to stay strong and connect with my work. I hope to write more pieces that can reflect the emotions of myself and the world, thank you for reading.</p>

KrilaundaJul 12, 2018

<p>Wow this is beautiful. This is exactly how I feel. Suicide is such a deep topic that I'm glad that we're becoming more aware of so that we are able to help those in a dark place. I definitely have been in that place before and the way your poem expresses those feelings is just so raw and inspiring.</p>