In search of Love

I'm only here to express myself, elect myself, and hopefully recollect myself. Too many times where I was down, dealing with melancholy, praying to the heavens that I would one day see matrimony. One day, soon or maybe someday, I would see the warmth of love in the form of sun rays. Currently attacked in my mind, cause I just can't seem to find that extra piece of happiness that'll keep me in line, when I color my everyday, with laughter and motivation. Quiet conversation cause I'm introverted. My level of intellect, I know you heard it. I see beauty in a different light, something like it's christmas time, finding love in America is hard but nothing like a crime. I put myself down, I let my family down, I made a few wrong turns but never turned around. But as of now I love myself, comfortable enough to hug myself, cause the past gave me wisdom so now I regain myself. I need love from me, before I turn to you. Looking back at my life I'm starting to see this thing called love from a birds eye view.