Seasonal Revelations

Warm in the summertime with cherry red lips

I guzzle water and try to fit my hands around my hips

I hide under my towel and you tell me what to do

The ocean waves draw me further into you

I sway and follow your every move

Asking myself when will I look the way you want me to

Freezing in the fall, I sip black coffee and green tea

You say "this instead of meals will make you free"

I cover myself in blankets and shake with terror

Trusting you was my biggest error

Dying in the winter I let the wind eat me

Convinced I am crazy, I cannot see what others see

I get lost until I glimpse at your perfect frame

Drawn back to my only claim to fame

I concentrate only on what you have to say

You seemed to grow stronger when I withered away

I fell asleep for a while and you disappeared

In my dream I saw everything that I had ever feared

Awakened in the spring I am no longer yours to keep

I finally eat but allow you to make me weep

I see the corruption and lies that compose you

I look behind me, what did you make me do?

I look again and you are gone

And then I was enlightened as if by the dawn

I did this to be thin like you too

But you were me and I was you