Secret Brokenheart

in these times, mother. father. love. trust. are words w/o mean. nowhere to turn, to run. stranded is what it seems. no strength to cry when sorrows fills the eyes. nights on knees, praying to ask God why. for every one she's their soldier but no one leaves her a shoulder. double crosses, she taking loses but she's trying her best to win. she has ambition & plans she wishes to begin no one's help, no one wants in surrounded when cash flows until it comes to end a flawless smile she flashes, but no one knows what her past is. her pain is hidden by her pretty white pearls as she stands alone against this cold hateful world. happiness is the goal. & if it had a price, she pay it times tenfold. boyfriends & dates every ex she hates. sex unprotected & the last impregnates only to know by the gained weight outcast & the people look down, every one she knows has a frown. no one never ask is she okay. never been greeted w/ a friendly hey. what's in her heart no one knows the light she wants to be loved tries to glow but she's afraid to be hurt so she doesn’t let it show. she wants to be loved especially when push comes to shove