SECRET LOVE

''oh, my secret love 
sometimes I wonder where you are
I am quite alone without you, 
most of the time I think about why are we apart 
but that always makes my heart hurt to remember the memories
but I will never forget them because you were a big part of me, 

every time I have a dream of us I leave something behind
I leave you pieces of my heart 
I had never stopped loving you 
I still love you from a distance 
I still have visions brushing at my heart
I stood so near to you in memory 
Oh my love I wish you were still here standing next to me, 

I still Love you 
but this love that we have has been so hard on me
do you remember all our talks? 
do you still see me in your silver truck where we made our Love? 
do you see the warmth of our breath writing down history 
of you and I when you looked into my eyes for your very first time
do you still see that spark of love? 

Oh Dark Angel, I know you have a name 
but I will never say a thing 
you already feel the shame of the pain you had given to me
I hold on to all the good things you also had given me
this you could only see as you read, 
Can you my love feel my heart on fire
you are my biggest desire, 

You always told me my lips are so sweet 
you love how they taste 
you always told me we had a love that is so unique 
I must agree your love is for me, 
you squeeze the love I hold deep within my soul
you take hold and breath it into your lungs

I can feel your touch even when you are not with me
I can feel you are near me, 
Why do you hide into the night just to stalk me? 
I feel the tightness of your pains and fears 
your warmth and hunger to be next to me
Oh my love what does this mean? 

I remember when we held each other 
we would listen to our hearts beat almost 
as if the beats became one
I didn't run from the passion you have for me
You told me to promise you I would never forget you 
never forget I am your one and only true love, 

I just want you to know I kept my promise to you, 
I wont run from what I know about you 
I will hold on to what is true 
I will keep this passion of our love as new, 

When I sleep at night I feel the comfort of your eyes
upon me I feel you want to love on me 
You want to kiss me before I awake to another day 
Yes my love our love will spark again 
this love we have is waiting once more 
no more lies 
no more tears 
I don't want anymore fears 

everyone say love will find a way if what we have is real
they say love drys out the crying eyes
I smile and realize that my heart belongs to you 
nobody has felt what I hold deep within 
but you do my secret love .

Poetic Lilly J. Emery (c)