See, I don't know

See, I don't know why I still search your name up in my phone

or why I be looking at my photos I can never delete

because i still don't know how to live without you

this past month has been shit, I ain't gunna lie to you

because those memories I have still haunt my heart 

And in the dark, i cry ever night hoping you will come back

even if you do I have to let your pretty smile go

cause you never smiled for me, you smiled to the drugs that took you away from me

and you don't see the pain in me

no one seems to see what a tragedy I've been living in

they ignore me even when I say I'm not ok

and i still wish you stayed.

lord please forgive me for loving the wrong man

i dont think I can give my heart out no more

my pain is just to broke I can't put any word into my soul

i can't cry no more

when i try, it hurts the inside even more

ive been through a lot of shit I'm used to it

i can't even cry

i can't  forget the pain you put me in

i can't forget that first kiss and that first day we met

i never lied when I said I felt a spark that day

n I ain't gunna lie ever to   you my pain

i still wish you where here right beside me

you promised there would be a future

there would be an us

a mrs. and a mr.

trust, 

a word I gave it all too 

i can't believe I still miss you.

your probably expecting me to wait

while your out here smoking pot and having fun all day

then come back whenever you feel like it,

as much as I want to!

i hate to brake it to you 

but goodbye

i hope you never see me in this pain

you can't just leave the person you love behind

you can't  just come back when you want and say hi like it's alright

you can't just let him back in  everytime your sacred of losing someone 

especially if you already lost them.

it hurts me thinking your with other women

other women with better bodies

women that would make you "happy"

those girls not women who will hand you those drugs,

cause that's what you want.

And you wanted that all along,

IM SORRY