Self

Is a person still a person if nothing but a contradiction to themselves 

How about the inability to find who they are without assistance from someone else

They say we create our own concept of heaven in our minds, but what if our heaven becomes hell with time

Can one escape the mental confinements they have imposed on themselves in attempt to cope with those who share the same shelf 

The thought of a true enemy humors me considering the unfathomabilty of anothers hatred stronger than my own for me 

Though quite emotional it's emotion that is lack at least for the exterior rest assured the int- floods to depths of black

Defenseless to thoughts defensive to expression one word for self description; suppression 

Antisocial sciolist, multifaceted socialist, optimistic pessimist, longingly awaiting mental recession

Fighting self, self accepting, oxymoronic occupants of mind

Is it considered self discovery if found that there is nothing to find

Ask for help, considered annoyance, act like you're happy, question flamboyance

Satisfying behavior, to be seemingly fine, silence

If only manageable for thoughts