selfish

Selfish

Am i selfish for  wanting someone to love me the way i love them

To go and check up on me daily 

To fall in love so early 

Talk to day and night 

To just take one look at me and get instant happiness 

But they will never once feel the hurt of rejection and isolation 

They will never understand what it's like to have your heart breaking because you know you’re not the one making them smile 

Never once will you know what it's like to stay up all night thinking all the what ifs in the world

What if they stayed

What if i said this 

What if i did this 

What if i did nothing at all 

What if i told them my pain 

Would they run away 

Or stay and try to take it make ok 

What if i never felt this pain

Am i selfish for wishing one day they will feel my pain and hurt 

Am i selfish for wanting you to live a day in my life 

Am i selfish for wanting change 

Am i selfish if i say i don’t feel okay 

Am i selfish if i don’t want to smile all the time 

Am i selfish for waiting for an apology 

Am i selfish for wishing you never came 

Am i selfish if i don’t want to stay 

Because truth is i feel selfish 

I feel selfish for not wanting to live another day