selling my soul 4 college dollars
apparently, there is a connection
connotation between kings and gods and what have thee
to take the crown and be blessed royalty
but as a kid growing up with immigrant parents
things weren't that apparent.
see, i am not a girl. not a woman, quite.
is there not a placeholder between queen and princess?
for i have seen the middle,
too old to whine,
too young to rest,
too small, too little
in the chest.
all my life i've had others dictate who i was to be,
destined to grow up to be suburban monarchy,
to be kind and graceful and bear the fruit
of men
but only when i'm old enough to do it.
however, no king or god or man hath seen
the wrath of a woman unable to fulfill the yearn
not of child or matrimony
but of career and job opportunity.
so, here i am. seventeen.
applying for colleges for the fall semester of 2016,
confused and asking for scholarly money in stanza
but all that i can hear is a repeated mantra
"student debt? they'll give you money for being a minority
or being a girl, as if your life could go more horribly!"
sometimes i don't know whether it's worth it.
they literally throw money at you for not being perfect.