Senior Stasis and Other Things
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the last time you heard from me
i was flying far off into the sky
or perhaps I was falling
I wasn’t sure of where I was going
or if i would ever make it
i still don’t know where I am
i was happy
really and truly happy
then i lost myself
and i’m here
and the beautifully broken birdie’s wings
have healed
or maybe they were never broken to
begin with
she’s been trying at flying for quite
some time
but she’s lost for good
the rope is gone
and no one is here to save her
and everyone from every window
is calling her name
and she isn’t sure of where to go
whose ledge will protect her
and whose will smash her
reach inside and clip her wings
again and again
when will she learn
not to trust these people
the one’s who stroke her feathers
then turn around and pluck them
from her bitter battered soul
i’ve been working on my body
and i’m okay with it now
i’m piloting this stardust being
through the milky way
but i feel my conclusion is around the corner
and my introduction needs work
because you still don’t know me
haven’t you been paying attention
don’t you know
it’s me
it’s me
i’m the one who screams at night
yelling and bellowing til i’m blue
in the moon and not even he can
save me. i’m the seeds you blow
off dandelions
everywhere and nowhere
and you’re always glad to see me
except for when you’re not.
i am the lily pads frogs perch upon in
stagnant sorrowful puddles
I’m the face you see in your dreams.
the girl who cuts corners made of
glass and cries when she’s tired and
spills herself onto the floor
so strap me into a hot air balloon
and send me to the stars
i am here and i am me
i am emma estess louis
and i am lost and forever wandering
mayhaps, one swell splendid day
i’ll get to where i’m going
and i’ll frame that day and hang it on the wall
and we’ll all laugh at me because i’m
stronger and i did it.
for now i’ll make my peace with the trees and knock on the wall at night
i’ll exist as a whisper and kiss the stars
when i get there.
i’ll be your little dreamer
even all the way over there
and I'll live on through what
i leave in you