In A Sentimental Mood

Dear one,

I never thought my life could change 

As suddenly as a sharply drawn breath

An unexpected run in with duty after desire

Tight words spoken in the dark

Betraying the turbulent, hidden emotions 

And all the unresolved issues

That slowly but surely damaged;

And now strained at the hinges of a union

Which was perhaps star crossed from the start

But the stars blinded us from the truth

Until we could see nothing else

Falling in a sentimental mood,

It would’ve been too easy to slip back into the stupor

Of the dominant and the submissive,

The strong and the weak, the man and the woman

With the pungent spices of mistrust, jealousy, and insecurity

But the taste of freedom still lingered on my tastebuds 

And I hadn’t known that I was starving...

That’s when the break came, 

With a warning like a tsunami and sharp as a guillotine

The two who had once been twain 

Now unraveled faster than comprehension 

Splitting into opposites with no direction

With an agony that made death seem like a lover...

Turning over the ring that isn’t there

As though I could stop up the emptiness in my soul

Learning the lessons one always hears

But never gives much thought to

Unless you’re in a sentimental mood