In Shadow

Walking, steps matched, in number and in pace

Further on we walk, while briskly, not a race

If anyone comes forth

If anyone attacks

I've trusted in your power

to always have my back

You step out to the monsters

You step out to the ghosts

But the ones I want to love

you step out to the most

I wish you'd see the difference

Between enemy and friend

I wish a time would come,

when your usefulness would end.

But still my thickest part 

with ligature and tie

keeps you hard connected

so all I do is sigh

as I die.

The harder I push you away

The more you want to stay

You say its the only way

For me to make it through the day

"What if this?"

"What if that?"

"But did you think of that?"

"You aren't worth anyones time."

"You should stay here in your mind."

Well I'm done with it.

And you're me and I'm you

so I know now what I must do.

You have taken too much now

So fucking much I don't know how

Chances for love

Chances for wealth

A life of adventure

A life of good health

So much exploration

So much I've not done

So much fucking lying

saying "I'm having fun..."

And now worst of all you have taken my jewel

You've made me the king of a world full of fools.

You stood there between us would not let her through

Thought she was talking to me

but she was talking to you.

You told her about me, my strengths and my heights

But I saw there behind you a long bloody knife.

And now that youve cut her and slashed her to bits

You turn back to me to deliver the hits

Is that what you wanted? Is that why you let me let her in?

Did you plan to destory her since before it could begin?

I'm disgusted with you

Which means I've disgusted with myself

But here I still am with me.

God help me.

But first, God help her.