Shadow bars

Not so hard on the outside
As being inside
Where monsters play
 
But this now
Again struck with temptation
 
No rule book to guild them
Or chains to bind them
 
Just eyes burning
Deep as cattle brands
With distrust
 
And lust
All those voices crying
I must, I must
 
Retreat back
Safety in numbers
 
Now only shadow bars
Crossing over
Back and shoulders
 
As I move forward
Out into the light
Of freedom
 
Hard won
After I lost
Just one fight