SHAGGY

One day your here

next you disappear.

The illusion of seeing you 

is as strong as my panic attacks that are thrown at you at the thought of the loss.

The imaginary talks you have just to blink twice

and realize you’re not here.

The love you give is as strong 

as the love towards a mother and her kids.

The mistreat you received only made you stronger 

never once you gave up on being my brother.

The day I realized you were taken from me was the day my heart and soul were stripped away from me.

The quietness, the loneliness. the way no one says anything to strip me from the waterfalls holding my tears, one word and boom an ocean has been created.

Day by Day, Hour by Hour, Minute by Minute, Second by Second 

The thought of your smile while rolling on the grass right after your done getting a bubble bath.

It was always you who was there when there was a frown on my face, you brought it back up with the little jump hug you have me,

The day you weren’t you was the day I wanted to curse the demons who stole your life 

One day there was a cry the other there was a smile but hiding behind embracement which you shouldn’t have had,

We slept together every day till the day I had to leave 

worriment with worriment 

lie with lie 

I came back to you swollen with tears in your beautiful brown eyes

We spent the whole day together

I Smiled and cried all that day because I missed you dearly and because I hated seeing you that way 

you walked all over the house inside and out 

night time came, and I left you outside for ten minutes, so I could shower 

I get out to stares and I knew you were gone...