Shattered

How many days did you say those words, Thrown freely like so many un-caged birds, You always knew how to say what you thought, So that I would understand the situation not; You lied, you took, and baited at leisure, Your mesmerizing words nearly drove me to seizure; I thought I knew you so, Yet for no known reason you let me go; That was one thing I never expected, I was stupid enough to leave myself unprotected; My heart, you stole from my very chest, I wonder of how you will treat the rest; You took, you stole, what never should have been yours, You ravenously tore me apart, like a hoard of oh so many boars; Yet still you allow yourself of our future to think, While I stand on that uncomfortable brink; The brink of holding on, and of letting go, Looking into a set of headlights like a frightened doe; Confused and stunned, I can not wander, The words which you speak make me ponder; How ominous, the words you speak, So strong, among the many weak; All my hopes and dreams once fell away, Death appealed to me every day; I could not be weak, despite my need, In my life, I could not allow pain to impede; You were the cause of all the pain I felt, To your new enticing words, I can not allow myself to melt; And now, at this point, I must stay strong, Keep fighting through days short, and days long; You tell me you are more happy now, The child inside me wonders how, I convince myself to hold on one more day, Maybe tomorrow I can be happy in the same way.