She Left. Now My Life Is a Mess

I have a motivation

Something that keeps me going

Trying to be strong

For the girl that fallen

I'm trying not to lose my mind

Keeping myself under control

I look people in the eye

Lying is all I can do

I try not to burst out laughing

But I think of my girl

How she left

Still wondering "why...?"

Getting no answer

Why didn't I get the chance to say "good-bye"...?

I know she didn't think about me

She jumped

Left without a real reason

I blamed society 

Now I blame myself

I needed to see her grave

Know it's really real

I lost all my feelings

Everyone noticed 

Sadly it doesn't matter 

My eyes red from no sleep

No eating

I couldn't focus 

I still don't

But this is for her

Everything is.